So sorry it's been radio-silence for a couple of days. Today, many of you have so kindly emailed to find out how I'm doing. Please know, I've been meaning to write but I'm bizarrely superstitious right now. It's a function of the OCD I struggle with sometimes.
In short, I'm feeling much better (thank you health goddess). Again, I've been so blown away by this bug, that I'm anxious to seem too invested or excited by any turn of events, but in the last couple of days I've noted marked reduction of laryngeal mucous, less violence in coughing and I've somehow come up with a way to wake myself every couple of hours - before any stridor can occur.
That's a huge advance, because it means I'm not as afraid to sleep. And, Lord, I need sleep. Last night, I got 12 hours, broken into two hour stints. Each time I woke, I drank a small amount of water and got my breathing back on track (before any fit could start). Then went back to sleep again.
Hilly came over today with so much awesome food. A whole week's worth of prepared meals and special homemade treats so that Scott and M will be nutritiously fed. I still find it challenging to eat. Most foods are either mucous-producing (dairy, sugar, gluten) or tough (meats, for example), so I'm subsisting on broth soups, white rice, frozen blueberries (these are a BOON), eggs, some small bits of soft meat, and the occasional piece of toast.
I would say that I feel better right now (again, no investment) than I have in a month. I'm still just sitting on the couch watching half of whatever movie comes on, putting my head over bowls of steam-water, surfing the net and wondering how on earth a day can go by so unproductively. Then I remember that my body is doing yeoman's work getting better and it all seems much more productive.
Some signs that I do have a bit of energy include that I have knit a few rows over each of the last 2 days and I've loaded and started the dishwasher. Point is, I was so horrified by the state of the kitchen, I actually motivated myself to improve it. That's the old me coming back!
I want you to know how much I appreciate your love and support right now. I KNOW it has been fundamental to my getting better - everyone's caring has bolstered my spirits immeasurably.
I can't say I'm feeling normal, or cheerful, but I'm not anywhere near as scared or depressed. I will keep you posted, though I'm trying not to bombard you all with these boring updates. I know you come to read about fun things and creative activities. I would love to have something new and fun to share when next I post.
Actually, here's something for Canadian readers: gapcanada.ca (which always ships free for orders over $50.00) is having a 30% off sale until Oct. 25. There are many good deals to be had on all merchandise, such as Gap Body and 1969 denim. Usually, I shop for jeans and Ts for M and Scott by going into the Gap store, but since I've been in the house for the last month, I haven't been able to. I was just able to buy all of the things they've needed (M is too tall for all of her clothes again), at excellent prices, without leaving my couch. Gotta dig the 21st century.